walked into Skinner’s office for the first time in a week, the first time since it happened. She was mourning but since she hadn’t been a relative she had to take personal time. Mulder was gone. Burned with his lover, Diana Fowley, and
the rest of the consortium hierarchy at El Rico Air Base.
she figured that Skinner would tell her if she would be assigned back to the X-Files or if she was
to be transferred. She never thought it was possible but she just didn’t
care which. The X-Files were Mulder’s obsession and she’d shared it with him.
Until last spring she thought it was them against the wrong doers. Her
fantasy came crashing down the moment Mulder sang Diana’s Fowley’s praises and asked her if she wanted him to
make a choice. She didn’t need him to make a choice; he’d already
made it clear what the answer would be.
fact that she loved Mulder was no secret to her, nor to Mulder she suspected. Scully
was good at controlling her emotions but he just knew her too well. Mulder was
nothing if not a master manipulator and he tossed her scraps to keep her involved. He
even went so far as to tell her he loved her. Dolling out affection in bits and
pieces; keeping the hunger at bay but never satiating and only when absolutely necessary.
mentally slapped herself for being uncharitable. Mulder had loved her, how could
he not? It was the love you doted on a trusted friend and confidant, a pet. Yes, he had loved her but he had been ‘in’ love with Diana Fowley.
she’d had any doubts, they were erased the last time she saw him. He stood
there with his arms crossed and that smug look on his face. She wanted to slap
him, make him wake up to what they were showing him. The only time he seemed
remotely interested was when she started to walk out. He had called her back,
but only to insult her. Thankfully she never looked back when she left or he
would have seen the death of her feelings for him; for surely even she could not hide such complete destruction.
called her later; wanting her to tag along with them. It was insulting that he
actually thought she would subject herself to that humiliation. Better to die
with the few threads of dignity she still clung to than sell out like Mulder had; to be a traitor. It was at that moment she discovered that you could truly love someone and hate them at the same time. Oh yes, she hated Fox Mulder; she hated him with all the intense passion she loved
hadn’t gone to the funeral. She hadn’t even asked about the plans. She didn’t think she could take seeing the two coffins being laid to rest side
by side for eternity. She couldn’t even find it in her to send condolences
to his mother. Instead she spent a morning in silent prayer and meditation. Later, she put a bag in her car and drove. She
drove with no destination in mind; stopping only when she tired and ate only when she was hungry. If anyone asked where she’d gone she would have to look at receipts for the answer. To the ever dutiful woman she was, freedom was a heady experience that reintroduced her to the carefree
teenager she once was.
returned late last night and prepared herself to face her future. She didn’t
know what was in store for her. They may return her to the X-files or back to
teaching. She may return home in a few hours and begin packing because they decided
to transfer her to some field office. The meeting with Skinner in the morning
had all the mystery and possibilities of a closed door. No matter how many times
you’d crossed its threshold, you never knew what may lay beyond. Scully
was filled with wonder and terror and it exhilarated her!
sat at his desk and hardly noticed her as she walked in. Sitting in the chair
that Mulder nearly always took, sat a man. He was tall with dark hair and brown-green
looked vaguely familiar but that could be just that she’d seen him lurking the Hoover hallways. So
she was being assigned a new partner. It was fast but maybe for the best
because it gave her no time to sulk. She mentally thanked Skinner for his compassion
gentle shy smile graced his face as she took the other seat and she acknowledged it with a nod. She waited for Skinner to perform the introductions but after a few minutes she got antsy and decided to
take matters into own hands.
reached out her hand to the man and introduced herself. “Hello, I’m
Dana Scully and you are?”
men looked at her and tried to figure out what was going on. It was definitely
not like Dana Scully to joke and her face showed that she was indeed serious. Her
eyes showed no recognition in them.
man extended his hand and said simply, “Fox Mulder.” He looked at
Skinner who just shook his head. Mulder figured it would be best to play out
the scene and find out what was going on with her. Her eyes still remained clueless.
to meet you, ‘Fox’ did you say?” Scully responded as she pulled
her hand back.
nodded and said, “I prefer Mulder.” She nodded in reply but gave
no further acknowledgement.
Scully, who do you think this is?” Skinner asked trying hard to hide his
assuming this is my new partner.” She turned to Mulder, “I don’t
know if you are aware that my former partner, Special Agent Fox Mulder, and his lov. . ., I mean along with Agent Diana Fowley,
was killed in a holocaust a week ago.” She turned back to Skinner. Even her saying his name did not make her recognize Mulder. “Am I right?”
went to say something but Mulder quickly shook his head. “Yes, that is exactly right Agent Scully. May I call you Dana?”
wanted to tell him to call her Scully but there was something wrong about that so she nodded and said, “that would be
from this, am I to assume that we will be assigned to the X-Files?”
yes, Agent Mulder here will be in charge of the division and . . .”
it were possible Scully sat even straighter. “With all due respect to Agent
Mulder’s abilities, I think my experience in the division would warrant some consideration in this matter.”
was at a loss so he fell on his old standby. “I will take it under advisement.”
wanted to continue the argument but knew it wouldn’t help. ‘Take
it under advisement’ was the A.D.’s equivalent of her mom’s ‘I’ll think about it.’ In other words no chance in hell!
dismissed them so they went to the basement office without conversation. Scully
stopped at the door with her keys in the lock and just stood there with her eyes staring at the two nameplates: Special Agent
Diana Fowley and Special Agent Jeffrey Spender. “That needs to be fixed
immediately,” she said acidly.
door opened to reveal the office looking exactly like it did the night Mulder and she had been caught ‘trespassing’
by Spender. She looked around for a moment.
It was neater than when she worked here with Mulder but it was still ill laid out.
think we need to get another desk in here. If we move those cabinets there will
be room.” She chuffed a sad laugh. “I
worked in this office for over five years with Mulder and I never had a desk. I
asked about it once and he made a joke. It really hurt but I suppose he was telling
was really curious to find out what she thought his carelessness meant, so he asked.
“I suppose it was Mulder’s way of telling me that I really didn’t belong. I always had the feeling I was temporary.” She looked
down and her hair hid her face. “I found out last spring why.”
quickly pulled her shoulders back. “Well, I don’t know what he told
you about me, but Skinner told me nothing about you. Do you want to head out
to an early lunch and trade background information and cell phone numbers? Come
on I’ll show you mine if you show me yours.”
face lit up with a smile and Mulder’s heart soared then plummeted. This
was a Scully he didn’t know, a little light hearted, definitely flirty and kind of irresistible. But how can she be acting like this if she thought he was dead? He
had a theory, of course, but he wanted to be sure. He was going to use their
‘getting to know you’ session to find out.
arrived at the restaurant and Scully stared at the entrance before walking in. “Something
wrong?” Mulder asked.
it’s just, well, this was Mulder’s favorite place for lunch. I haven’t
been here for some time and it took me by surprise. I rather missed it.”
thought about it for a moment and they hadn’t been here for at least four or five months. Heck, they mostly grabbed something and ate at their desks while they worked for Kersh. He had been the one that stopped their outside lunches, choosing instead to use the time to search out
leads and hack into the X-Files computer. It never occurred to him that Scully would miss it.
then became worried that someone at the restaurant might know them and mention him by name.
But then again, it might jog her memory. The question was would that be
a good or bad thing?
concern was unfounded because the host and the waiter were new to the place so to them they were just two anonymous customers.
Scu--, I mean, Dana would it be okay to make a deal? I ask you all the questions
this time and then next time you get to ask. You know, we’ll rotate.”
looked at him suspiciously and he thought she was going to say no but then she just nodded.
“That would be fine but with one rule: nothing too personal.”
personal?” Mulder didn’t quite understand. Nothing between Scully and he could ever be too personal. But
then he remembered, to her he wasn’t ‘Mulder,’ or at least the one she knew.
can’t ask me when my period is and I can’t ask you your jock strap size; too personal.” Mulder almost choked on his soda.
started off slow trying to cover all the things someone who didn’t know her might ask.
Family, all the places she’d lived growing up, college, medical school, when she went through Quantico and so on. Scully answered everything but she also gifted him with little stories.
Mulder was charmed and saddened. Why hadn’t she shared any of these
things with him before? Did she think he wouldn’t have been interested? Then again he’d never shown an interest; he’d never asked.
told him about living in Japan for six months and that in San Diego she got her first kiss when she was four and riding her little bike.
He was a friend of her brother’s who was about eight; he just grabbed her and kissed her on the mouth. It scared her so much she ran into the house and made sure she wasn’t anywhere around if that boy
was visiting. She heard years later that he was convicted of sexually abusing
little girls when he was in his twenties. Mulder found out that she actually
had had a little sister but the child died when she was eight months old. Scully
had been two when the girl, Karen Jean, was born and her dad was deployed at the time.
She was home alone with her mom when she went into labor. Mulder could
see the panicked child she’d been when she called for help and then waiting for someone to arrive. Scully told him that she’d blamed herself for the Karen’s death because she thought she had
done something wrong when her mom was in labor.
was over, but Mulder suggested they keep up the question and answer. Scully didn’t
know why, but she agreed. They drove back to work and settled into the office
and the conversation never ceased
knew it would be an invasion but he couldn’t help himself; he moved the conversation to her feelings and thoughts about
him. He justified it by saying it might lead him to understand what happened. He also knew it was a bullshit justification.
would you mind if we talked about the X-Files and your former partner?”
hesitated but decided he had a right to know. “I’ve heard that you
and Mulder were really close. . .”
interrupted him, “they aren’t true.” He looked confused. “The
rumors are not true. We were never involved like that. Mulder never saw me as anything more than his partner and his best friend.
When he went looking for lovers they tended to be a lot taller with brown hair and, let’s just say their body
types were a lot different.” Her hands extended about three or four inches
in front of her bust.
just stared. How could she think that?
Scully must have read his face and added, “believe me in six years I had plenty of proof. I saw countless double takes and all the lustful glances from him and never once was there a short redhead
in the bunch. Hell, there wasn’t a tall one either but there was the occasional
blonde. I interrupted him once, walked in.
We were on a lousy case in a town called Comity, what a nightmare. We
had been on each other’s nerves since the previous case.” She looked
away and spoke quietly so Mulder had to listen hard to hear. “Bambi an entomologist, a damned bug doctor and the son
of a bitch hated insects. But give him a chance to get laid,” her voice
trailed off as she realized she was actually speaking.
Comity, he said it was some sort of planet alignment that caused the craziness. I
don’t know but something was going on. There had been another murder and
I walked into his room, the door was ajar, and there was the female detective straddling his groin with her skirt almost scrunched
to her waist.”
you sure that was what happened, couldn’t it have been that she jumped him?”
Mulder felt he needed to defend himself.
that was what he claimed but by the time this happened I’d gotten to know him pretty well. I just walked in too soon.”
you know why I called him Mulder all the time?”
was taken aback slightly. “He preferred it?”
yes – sort of. He preferred it from men, most definitely from me but he
preferred Fox whenever the possibility of an easy screw entered the picture. He
called me Scully from moment one so I followed suit. One night, I tried to tell
him how important he was to me and I called him Fox. He told me that he made
everyone, including his parents, call him Mulder. That bastard lied to me, as
if I hadn’t seen him flirt with nearly every buxom waitress or stewardess we ran into.” Scully made quote marks with her hands, “‘no, please call me Fox.’ That was when I knew that I would never be anything more than his partner.”
couldn’t believe what he was hearing but if he thought about it he had to admit she was probably right. Maybe slightly exaggerated but right all the same.
said something earlier that I’d like you to explain. You said you always
felt temporary and last spring you found out why.”
spring Diana Fowley, Mulder’s former lover, came back and he pushed me away. It
came to a head just before he was killed. We had a huge fight that night and
it was all about Diana Fowley. I’ll never forgive him for that; for how
he just chose her over everything we’d been through.”
saw the tear form in her eye and desperately wanted to fold her in his arms. “He
went to her and they took off together. He tried to take me too. I think that might be the worst part. Mulder actually thought
I would follow like some love sick puppy waiting for him to turn away from his lover to notice me. Like that would have happened. Besides, he betrayed the entire
human race! And he wanted me to do it too.”
Scully caught herself nearly screaming and calmed herself. “God,
I’m so sorry. The only thing I can say is that it is still pretty raw. I’m, oh hell, I’m just really sorry.
Do you think we can stop now? I’m really tired; I’m out of
practice telling someone what I’m really thinking. I’m sorry.”
Scully, don’t be sorry, I wanted to hear it, I want to hear anything you want to tell me.”
laughed, “that will be a change. I got into the habit of telling Mulder
‘I’m fine’ all the time because he never listened the few times I actually told him how I felt. He really didn’t want to know.” She stood up.
“I think I’m going to head out.”
got to her car and sat for a few minutes before starting the engine. The day
played over in her mind. What had gotten into her? She hadn’t been that open with anyone in a long time. Her
new partner seemed nice and for some reason, once she started talking, she couldn’t hold anything back. She knew she needed to get out of there when she started talking about Mulder. She started the engine and went home. She liked this Fox Mulder
but she was still going to have the guys check him out.
hours later Mulder was still staring at the door Scully had walked through. He
was hoping she’d come back yet fearing it too. The woman he’d spent
the day with was not his Scully. She was the woman who he’d caught a glimpse
of when she first walked in and introduced herself. The woman who he hardly had
a chance to know before something in him made her close down. Made her hide all
those wonderful tidbits of her life she told him about today.
anyone had asked him a week ago he would have sworn no one knew her like he did. He
was so wrong; he hardly knew her at all.
was obvious that the trauma of El Rico and his actions before it caused her to have some sort of hysterical amnesia. The break was so acute that she’d completely rewritten the facts. Hell, she’d killed him off.
walked into the office and sat down. “Any ideas as to what is going on?” Mulder recapped the day and gave him the highlights of what had gone on just before
El Rico, being sure to skim over the more sensitive issues.
now she’s convinced herself that you and Diana Fowley went to El Rico and were killed.
Did she say anything about the train and trashing the car?”
said she went alone. She also told me she couldn’t go to my funeral.”
thought for a moment. “I don’t want either of you in the field until
she is back to normal. I can give you a little leeway but you must know if she
doesn’t remember soon we’re going to have to get her help.” Mulder
only nodded. “Keep me informed will you?” Again Mulder nodded. Skinner sat forward, “Mulder, I’m
asking as a friend and not your boss but I need to know.” He didn’t
quite know how to ask it any way but bluntly. “Are you and Fowley involved?”
shook his head.
seen how you act with both women and I was convinced you were in love with Scully until about four or five months ago. You just, I don’t know, but you seemed awfully chummy with Fowley. I think that is what Scully picked up on. She almost said
‘lover’ this morning.” Skinner stood and walked to the door.
“And I have to tell you she wouldn’t be the only one who thought
that way either.”
started to open the door when Mulder regained his senses enough to stop him. “What
are you talking about?”
turned back and looked at Mulder, “I mean just the way you’ve acted. People
have been talking.”
walked toward the garage elevator and was pleasantly surprised to see Scully waiting for it.
“Good morning Scu . . .Dana.” He’d had a lousy night
but seeing her helped.
morning Mulder, what time did you take off last night?”
stayed till about eight-thirty then headed home.”
“Reading through the files or just trying
to believe you’ve been assigned to the X-Files and thinking about who you ticked off for this detail?”
Scully asked playfully.
was thrown slightly at her tossing his long ago words back at him. He thought
he’d try something, just then the elevator doors opened and she started in. “Actually
I was looking forward to working with you.”
steady steps faltered for a moment but she recovered quickly. She shook her head
and spoke, “Come on, you’ve got to be joking? You want to work with
the Ice Queen, Red Badger, Doc Ice, Stone Cold Scully on the least respected division in the FBI?”
was aghast that she knew people called her those names behind her back. He knew
of them, of course, hell he was the one who coined Red Badger back in their first year.
Something he still regretted. He was also upset about what she said about
you really think so little of the division?”
but that’s what others think. I know the X-Files are important. They
are probably the most important division in all of the FBI. The FBI hierarchy
knows it too but they won’t ever admit it.” The elevator reached
the basement and they walked toward the office. Once again she stopped at the
locked door. This time she turned to him. “Agent Mulder, in this office
there are things unheard of, un-thought of and unimaginable. There are lies and
deceits but there are also truths and our job is to find out which is which and try and prove what we find.”
solemnly opened the door and put her things down and removed her coat. Mulder
could tell she had more to say and he was eager to hear it. She started slowly. “The first time I entered this room I thought I would stick around for five
or six months. Prove Mulder was a crackpot then go on my merry way. Two weeks later, after one field assignment and a lot of reading of the cases, I knew this would be a lot
longer assignment than I’d planned. In those two weeks I experienced an
assignment that knocked me on my smug little ass and I found out that Mulder was no crackpot but a genius and someone who
challenged me and let me challenge him. That man became my dearest and most precious
friend and until a few months ago I thought we would be together in some way for the rest of our lives.” She snorted a little, “I guess you could say we were together till his death but it wasn’t
like it was before. Before it was us against everyone else, in the end,”
she paused and just said, “it was different.”
wanted desperately for her to finish the thought but couldn’t figure out how to make her continue.
I’m trying to say is that the X-Files is not the first rung on the latter to the top but in its own odd way it is the top. You will never do more important work than this.”
tried desperately to hide his emotions. He never knew Scully felt this way about
the little orphaned division. He saw he needn’t have worried about her
seeing his emotions because she was lost in her thoughts.
set about organizing the office and Mulder ordered a desk and chair for Scully. She’d
been right about moving a couple of cabinets to make room. He was surprised when
she opened her briefcase and pulled out a folder that contained quite a number of the old articles he’d had posted randomly
around the office before the fire. Scully explained that she had come in and
salvaged what she could in hopes of presenting them to ‘Mulder’ when they got the X-Files back.
She told him that she scoured the DC area trying to locate a replacement poster.
She went into detail explaining the poster to him.
think he would have really appreciated that, Dana.”
maybe, I thought so at one time but toward the end I wasn’t sure,” Scully said hesitantly.
needed to know what she was talking about. “What do you mean, you weren’t
was taking me for granted, taking our partnership and our friendship for granted. I
tried but I never seemed to do anything but annoy him. Oh, hey how about lunch? It’s time I got to grill you about all your deep dark secrets.”
couldn’t believe the morning had passed so quickly.
went to a small Italian place that Scully knew about. Mulder had never been there
and he wondered why she’d never shared this place with him. They ordered
and she started questioning him. He was sure that his answers would spring some
recognition from her but it didn’t. He told her about going to Oxford and her only comment was that it
was strange that he’d never met Mulder there. He mentioned Phoebe Greene
and she laughed that both her partners had been enamored with that ‘Brit bitch’ as she called Phoebe. He mentioned
his sister being kidnapped, he avoided saying abducted. He thought she might
interpret that as him mocking ‘Mulder.’
matter what he told her she showed no signs of recognition. She made one comment
about how much his life paralleled Mulder’s. The questioning went on all
afternoon and Mulder amazed himself at how many things he’d never told her about.
He even told her about his marriage and subsequent divorce. He left Diana’s
name out of it, only saying that it was a woman he worked with and that she left DC before the final decree was dry.
decided to lay it all out. He told her he was in love with someone and that he
thought he’d blown it with her. He explained how his ex-wife showed up
and he’d let his screwed up sense of loyalty to his ex get in the way of his relationship with this other woman.
what would you do if something like that happened to you? Say Mulder did something
like that and without realizing it pushed you away. Would you forgive him, be
willing to love him again?” Mulder asked, desperately wanting to know her
smiled the saddest, loneliest smile he’d ever seen and she wouldn’t look at him.
“Is it that obvious? I mean that I loved him?” Mulder didn’t know how to answer so he remained quiet.
“No matter, this will have to be hypothetical since we know Mulder never loved me that way.”
wouldn’t be so sure of that, Dana. There had to be a reason so many people
thought you two were a couple. They had to see something from both of you.”
well, wait a minute when did I tell you about being mistaken for a couple?”
must have mentioned it,” Mulder stammered while he berated himself for not being more careful.
guess so,” she said slowly. “Hypothetically if Mulder were to, what
exactly, ask me to forgive him or take him back, what? You didn’t say how
far your relationship with this woman is.”
close, really close. We’ve never moved forward toward romance but that
is the direction I hoped we were headed. That is until I messed up and took her
for granted and trusted my ex-wife over her.”
is a terrible part of any relationship to destroy or even damage. It is the hardest
part to grow and even harder to earn back once lost.”
so than love?” Mulder was really interested in her answer, it would reveal
much more. You can love some one and not trust them or even like them. It is a little different but I love my brother Bill. But I
don’t really trust him and I don’t even like him very much. He would
always place his beliefs and needs over mine. Even on issues that relate to me
and he has no business being involved in. He always has and he has never not
told me what was wrong with me and my life.” Scully walked to the desk
and leaned back. “So you want this woman to renew your old relationship
and then move toward an even deeper relationship, is that right?”
smiled at how easily she said what he could barely put into thought. “Yeah,
that’s it exactly.”
if it were me, I’d need to know for certain you were sincere. That it wasn’t
just another dramatic ploy crafted out of your fear that I was leaving. That
this time you wouldn’t just drop it when you got what you wanted and left me hanging.” Her eyes drifted off as she thought of something unspoken. Mulder
had an idea that she was thinking about his declaration in his hallway last summer and how he never mentioned it again.
phone rang interrupting them and Scully answered. She handed the phone to him.
“It’s for you, and if I’m not mistaken it may be one of the women you were talking about, ‘Fox’.” He took the phone and she continued, “I’m cutting out, see you Monday.”
put the phone to his ear only to hear, “Fox, since when do you call Agent Scully Dana?” Diana asked.
Fowley was the last person he really wanted to hear from right then. “What do you want, Diana?”
spent the weekend recapping everything he’d learned from Scully. He now
thought he understood the reason for her amnesia and unfortunately he was the direct cause.
Unfortunately, this knowledge brought him no closer to finding a way to make her remember.
call had interrupted what might had been a revelation from Scully. Pangs of regret
hit him when he recalled how short he’d been with Diana but he couldn’t help it.
Her return had triggered the destruction of his relationship with Scully and her current problem. Okay, so he was being unfair. It wasn’t Diana that caused
the problems but his reactions to her.
morning, while he was getting ready for work, he was no closer to a solution than he’d been last Thursday in Skinner’s
office. All the weekend had brought him was more confusion and a lot less sleep
that he could ill afford to lose..
got to the office only to find Scully already working, sorting through some files. She
looked up and smiled at him then the smile dropped. “Damn, you look like
you need a caffeine drip. Trouble sleeping?”
he dropped his things and walked over to where she was sitting. “Find anything
and I think it’s a good thing. I don’t think you could handle it. What happened, does this have anything to do with your woman problems?”
guess it does, but not in the way you mean. Could we, I mean would it be okay
if we didn’t talk about that now?”
course, Mulder. Look, we’re only doing paperwork and sorting so why don’t
you take your chair and a stool and see if you can catch some sleep?”
stood up and helped him off with his jacket then pulled him and his chair to the back room and made him sit. She dimmed the lights and walked back to the front office.
watched her for a few minutes then closed his eyes.
was aware of a gentle jostling of his shoulder and someone softly calling his name.
“Come on, Mulder, it is lunch time. Wake up.”
opened his eyes and gave Scully a huge grin, then he startled. “Wait a
minute, did you say lunch?”
it’s two, I was going to wake you earlier but you looked like you really needed it.
I went out and picked up some Chinese, I hope that’s okay?”
know what I like!” Mulder teased but sobered when he saw the questioning
look she gave him. The moment passed and she went to dish out their meals.
rest of the week was spent sorting, filing and cleaning up a few cases where they only needed to make a phone call or two
or. Thursday Scully got a call and was asked to fill in for a lecture at Quantico on Friday afternoon and Mulder
decided that would be a good time to talk to Diana Fowley. He called her and
arranged for her to meet with him in his office, at one, after Scully left.
arrived fifteen minutes late but Mulder chose to ignore it, there would be bigger issues to discuss. Mulder told her about the situation with Scully and was stunned by
reaction. Rather than help him find a way to help Scully, Diana wanted to use it as a way to have her taken off the X-Files and have herself reinstated. For the first time, he thought he might have been wrong and Scully might have been right about Diana.
were in the middle of a heated argument when Scully opened the door. “I
got half way there and they call me to tell me the lecture was cancel- -” She
stopped mid sentence and just stood there looking, first at Mulder then Fowley and back.
“Mulder?” She stammered, “but you’re, and you
are. . .” Scully couldn’t complete her thoughts as realization flowed
over her and suddenly she just folded into a heap.
Mulder cried as ran to her.
I call 911 or security?” Diana asked calmly, too calmly.
but I think you should leave before she comes to.” Mulder held Scully until
she awoke. First she smiled at him then jumped up as if he bit her. She twirled around looking feverishly for Diana. Suddenly
she stopped and she turned slowly back toward Mulder.
resentment and fear fought in her expression. She covered her face with her hands. “What was it, Mulder, some sort of cruel joke?
What a laugh you and Diana must have shared when you told her about the things I said to you.”
sob caught in her throat and Mulder kneeled in front of her. “No, Scully
I didn’t tell her any of the things we discussed; I wouldn’t do that to you, to us.” He tried to pry her hands down but she fought him. Mulder
finally pinned both her wrists in his hands and made her look at him. “Scully,
I just told Diana about this situation today. The only other person who knows
watched her for a moment and saw it happen. Scully’s internal walls built
up. He saw it in her eyes and in her posture.
Gone was the flirty open woman he’d just begun to know and his Scully returned with all her defense mechanisms
in place. He was sorry to see Dana go but this was the woman he’d fallen
in love with.
don’t need to hold me anymore Mulder, I won’t flee.”
didn’t release her but instead leaned in and whispered, “but I want to hold you.” He knew it was the wrong move before he finished his sentence. Scully
shook him off and walked to the other side of the office.
guess we need to talk,” Mulder mumbled.
it or not, I don’t blame you for this, Mulder. But I would like to ask
two questions.” He nodded to indicate that she should continue. “First, what the hell happened to me? I have it all
right here,” she pointed to her head. “You were dead and so was Diana
Fowley. I saw you dead. The funeral
was last week but I couldn’t go. What happened to me?”
had some sort of break caused by the trauma. Didn’t I look at all familiar?”
of, I remember thinking you looked familiar when I walked into Skinner’s office.
I just figured that I’d seen you around the building. There were
a couple times you’d say or do something and I’d think ‘that is just like Mulder.’ I can’t believe I didn’t make any connections.”
be honest. I can’t explain it but I’m kind of happy it happened because I learned a lot even if I didn’t
like being the cause. I’m going to guess your second question has to do
with our conversations, right?” Scully nodded once. “I was using the Q&A to profile you to try and figure out what caused the problem and maybe try
and fix it.”
don’t know what to say, I need to think about all of this.” Scully
moved to leave.
was in front instantly. “No! I’m
not letting you leave here and go and just fortify your defenses to the point I won’t ever get in.” He pulled back and continued more gently. “Scully, we
both said some things. You have to realize that when I told you about the woman
I wanted it was you I was talking about. And I know that in the things you said
you told me you loved me too. There is a lot more that needs to be said on both
didn’t say anything for several moments and Mulder was getting nervous. She
cocked her head, “so Diana Fowley is your ex-wife? What the hell were you
words Scully, Jack Willis.” Mulder responded.
it, temporary insanity.”
started picking up baseballs as Mulder paid off the kid. When they finished cleaning
up Mulder stored his bat in his trunk and they leaned against their cars. It
was Saturday night and still quite early. Neither wanted to leave so they just
leaned against their car doors facing each other. They’d had a rough start
and some serious setbacks; a badly timed undercover assignment, a sea monster during an off season hurricane in Florida and a woman who thought like
a dog and wanted to trap Mulder, to name a few. But they were still together
and making progress.
did you enjoy your batting lesson Scully?” Mulder asked casually.
very much. But I do have to confess something.”
a Scully confession, bring it on.”
have played baseball before. But I can honestly say that I never had a coach
use such a ‘hands on’ approach before.”
my own special technique, designed strictly for one student.”
honored. Just so I don’t forget,” Scully stood up and walked to him. She grabbed his hands and placed them on her hips and
leaned on him then wiggled her hips and Mulder groaned. “It was
hips before hands wasn’t it?”
yeah, definitely hips before hands.” Mulder leaned down and Scully pushed
up and their lips met in the middle.
notes: Like I said in the summary I have no idea if there is such a condition
as the one Scully suffered from. I’m not a psychologist or a psychiatrist
so most of this story is pure hokum. BUT I thought it made a good story, at least
I hope it did.