Scully walked into Fox Mulder’s office and looked around. What she found
confirmed all the rumors she’d heard about the man. Fuzzy pictures of Sasquash,
ghosts, flying saucers and other, so called, evidence of the paranormal were mingled with certificates of achievements and
plaques that provided proof of Agent Mulder’s numerous contributions and his brilliance.
The office walls were dominated by a poster of a ‘flying saucer’ with the words ‘I Want to Believe.’
Fox Mulder wanted to believe.
knew she was going where she was not welcome or even wanted. She also knew that
she could give Mulder her expertise and her skepticism and provide the grounding he needed for legitimacy.
does not mean non-believer.
Defiance / Incredulity
were returning to DC and Mulder was sleeping in the seat next to her. He’d
run off, disobeyed a government issued evacuation and been incarcerated. They,
the FBI, had sent her to collect their wayward malcontent.
done her duty but not without complications. The doctor at the small local hospital
had been overwhelmed and pulled her into harness. The patients were all military
men who were covered with radiation burns. Unfortunately, many of those patients
were introduced to her specialty; Pathology. The bodies she autopsied were, for
lack of a better description, cooked. Parts of them looked as if they’d
been put into a microwave.
looked at Mulder’s sleeping form and silently asked, ‘what was it for? All
the commotion, the fighting, the threats and the mysterious loss of Max Fenig. What
was it all for?’
they were returning to DC. Three days earlier their jobs were on the line. She’d told Mulder that they were threatening his job but she held back that
he’d put her position in jeopardy too. She wouldn’t lay that guilt
on him or use their partnership against him. Skinner had been able to postpone
the OPC meeting. He hadn’t lied just restructured the truth a little. He told the committee that she had been requested to help out by the local hospital
and that their return was delayed.
had no idea how they were going to get out of this one.
heard her in the bathroom; her movements sounded slow and laborious. Donnie Pfaster
had hurt her badly. But it wasn’t the physical damage that took the harshest
toll. Donnie Pfaster had gotten into her psyche.
was grateful that they’d arrived in time. The sight before him when they
crashed through the door nearly did him in. He’d gone to her while they
secured Pfaster and she clung to him; christening him with her tears. Strangely
he felt honored by her faith in him; that to her he represented safety and security.
It was a feeling he wasn’t used to.
people had opinions about Fox Mulder but no one thought of him as their safety net; no one but Dana Scully.
heard the door to the bathroom open and Scully walked out. She had the bottoms
on her pajama’s not the top. Instead she held a towel in front of her. Mulder knew he should look away but he didn’t seem capable.
avoided his eyes and held out a tube of the ointment the emergency room doctor had prescribed.
She turned and exposed her naked back to him. He saw a crisscross of lacerations. Silently he took the tube and started applying the ointment. When he finished he leaned to her ear. “You show up
in your underwear on our first case, now you come in topless. I have to tell
you, Scully, I’m sensing a pattern here.”
broke out in laughter and Mulder joined her. “Thank you, Mulder, thank
you for being you and bringing me back.” She turned to him and leaned gently
against him. They just stood there for a while, each grateful for the other.
were in the backseat just sitting quietly while the two agents in the front chattered on good naturedly about the conference
Mulder and Scully had missed. Mulder watched Scully out of the corner of his
eye while she just looked ahead with a small smile gracing her lips. He could
tell she had no idea what Kinsley and Stonecypher were babbling about; Scully was in her own little world. Mulder wanted to find some quiet place and just talk with Scully.
But it would have to wait until they got away from the ‘Stepford’ Agents.
with the locals to close out the case had put them off schedule so they were going to have to find some place to spend the
night. Kinsley pulled into a Motel 6. Mulder
and Scully volunteered to check them in. Mulder automatically asked for two sets
of adjoining rooms.
I think we can make due with two rooms.”
the ONLY way would be if you and I shared a room but then the Tweedle twins, Dee and Dum, would turn us in for cohabitating
on assignment. I’ll pay for the extra rooms myself.”
tossed her credit card on the counter next to the FBI card and Mulder’s. She
told the clerk to charge two rooms the FBI card and one room on each of their personal cards.
“Is it possible that the two pairs of rooms are far away from each other?”
like the way you think, Scully.
looked over to where Scully was sitting. They’d been told to wait outside
the conference room for the committee to decide their fate. He wanted to talk
to her but Skinner and Kersh were mere feet away and people kept walking by in the bustling hallway. He’d tried to catch her attention several times but she wouldn’t look at him.
ten minutes later the conference room door open and the four of them were summoned inside.
They were told that Mulder and Scully’s suspension was still in effect since they had disobeyed a standing order
to not be involved with the X-file. But the suspension would be lifted the following
Monday at which time they would report to AD Skinner and take charge of the X-Files Division. Agents
Spender and Fowley would be reassigned. They were dismissed.
caught up with Scully just before the elevators.
need to talk.” Mulder said as he held her upper arm.
looked at where Mulder had grabbed her and her shoulders sagged. “We will
talk, just not now.”
my emotions are too raw. I need time, please don’t push this, Mulder. We will both regret it if you do.”
maybe a few emotions are just what we need right now. Let’s go some place
and hash this out.” Mulder knew he was bullying her but he didn’t
want this estrangement hanging over them.
looked away and Mulder saw the glisten of a tear in the corner of her eye. Her
head started to shake. “I can’t, Mulder, I need time to resolve my
feelings over all this.”
what, Scully?” Mulder’s anger was reflected in his tight low
tones. “How you felt the need to go behind my back and make unfounded accusations
against someone I trust?”
pulled her arm from his grasp and stood up as straight as she could. Her face
grew dark as she looked at him for the first time. “No, Mulder, I have
to figure out how what you feel for that woman can make ‘you’re the only one I trust,’ turn from a blessing
to a curse. How you could pretty much destroy something I cherished, our relationship,
for a woman you hadn’t heard from since ’91. Lastly, I have to figure
out how I’m going to continue,” she paused for a second then added, “or even if I want to.”
watched her walk away; he’d never felt so alone in his entire life.
can change a man.
words were running circles around Mulder’s brain. Arthur Dales had said
those words to him earlier. Dales had been referring to how a man’s love
of something could affect him but Mulder’s thoughts ran toward how a woman’s love could transform a mere man into
something so much more.
he got the idea to have Scully help him with something over the weekend so he concocted some story of wanting to check birth
and death notices in New Mexico for the later ‘40s. He knew that no matter what
else Scully would never turn him down for work. Unfortunately he found an X-File
in the pages of the old newspaper.
was putting the last of the equipment in his trunk while Scully was searching for any stray balls that they’d missed. He closed the trunk and watched her scatter about’ he smiled.
caught him staring at him and she held up two balls triumphantly and she made her way toward him. There was a lightness in her step that had been missing for a long time and her body carried none of the
tension that had been the norm lately.
got balls, Mulder.”
most certainly do, Scully, you really do.”
laughter caught him off guard and he found himself joining in. God, he’d
missed this; this feeling of completeness he’d only ever felt with her.
felt her and opened his eyes. She was at the side of his bed debating; should
she leave for stay? Mulder raised his hand to her and she took it. He gently tugged her to sit. Scully nervously licked her lips
as their eyes locked.
hand found its way beneath her sweater and moved up and down her back. He pulled
her slightly toward him with each pass of his hands until they were in am embrace. He
unclasped her bra and soothed the skin.
love you, Mulder.” She said quietly.
it take seeing Daniel again for you to know that?” He asked, not sure he
wanted to know the answer be he needed to.
she pulled back and looked him in the eye. “I’ve known for a long
time. But it took seeing him to appreciate what that really means.”
what does it mean?”
the past matters but we can’t let it dictate our future. I don’t
want to spend the rest of my life regretting and never moving forward. Loving
you doesn’t make me weak but stronger than I ever thought possible. Everything
I ever wanted in a relationship I have with you whether I knew I wanted it or not and I know that you complete me and I complete
watched his face expectantly; he smiled. “I love you too, Scully. I really do.”