Scully was driving home, it was early but because of her many health concerns her OB/GYN forced her to start her maternity
leave immediately. She’d spent the day cleaning up the few things that
were open. She and Doggett met with Skinner to discuss a couple cases and then
both of the men made her take her things and leave.
Scully saw Mulder’s
car in the parking lot of Casey’s. He’d been back a month and instead
of growing closer the distance between them seemed to be widening. Mulder found
every excuse he could think of not to visit or even talk. Unbeknownst to him
she’d caught him in a few lies too. He’d claimed he was with the
Gunmen a couple times and later she found out they hadn’t seen him. She
hadn’t confronted him because she figured he needed time and space to rationalize everything that had gone on. Scully knew that he’d been through hell and that her pregnancy was a shock so
she’d allowed him his privacy. However her patience was beginning to wane.
It had been a week since they’d seen each other and they hadn’t spoken to each other much more
than for him to cancel any plans they had. Tonight he promised they would have
dinner together and they would talk, so, when she saw his car, she decided to surprise him; why wait? Besides she didn’t want to give him another opportunity to cancel like all the other times.
understand why at a time when they needed each other so much he kept his distance and pushed her away. When she’d been returned she reached out to him. Needed
him because of all the people in her life she knew he was the only one who would understand just like she was the only one
who could understand his experience. There was also their baby to think of and
decisions needed to be made.
Scully walked into
Casey’s and took a moment to adjust her eyes to the dim light and then she searched for him. She nodded and smiled towards Jenna, the bartender, and Jim Cohen, a Casey’s staple. They responded in kind but Jenna’s face looked ‘odd’. She ignored it and continued her
search. She saw Mulder, he was seated at a table toward the back and he wasn’t
alone. Sitting in the booth with him was Diana Fowley. The woman who’d nearly ended their relationship before they even had one. A woman who was supposed to be dead!
They were sitting
very close and he had his hand over hers. Scully watched as Mulder brushed hair
from Diana’s face and touched her cheek, a gesture all too familiar. They
smiled and laughed with the ease of people with a shared intimacy. It was only
too obvious to her that this wasn’t their first encounter.
Scully felt her chest
tighten and she knew she had to get out of there before he saw her, she couldn’t take any more. Tears threatened to spill as she turned to leave. She gave
Jenna a pleading look not to tell Mulder she’d been there; Jenna responded with a sad knowing nod.
Seeing Mulder with
any woman would have been hard, but the woman being Diana Fowley, there was no description sufficient for the pain it caused. Not only was Diana Fowley supposed to be dead, she was the woman Mulder really wanted. Scully knew she was just a replacement and she lived with that because she loved Mulder
more than the pain of knowing she would never be his choice.
Diana Fowley had
almost caused the end of their partnership. She had almost ended Mulder’s
life with her betrayals. Once Mulder had been rescued and the details of Diana’s
involvement with his hospitalization and subsequent kidnapping were discovered, Deputy Director Cunningham, himself, stepped
in and was instrumental in building the case against her. Only her death kept
her from going to prison.
None of that seemed
to have fazed Mulder because there he was with that woman, looking like reunited lovers for everyone to see.
know how she made it home because everything was a blur. Her mind was running
at a furious pace. This was the last of too many betrayals, Mulder was lying
to her, cheating on her and she didn’t even know how long it had been going on.
Could Mulder have known Diana was alive before his abduction? Was he seeing
her, involved with her when they tried the IVF? When they made a miracle? He’d made Scully feel so loved then that she almost forgot he wasn’t in
love with her. That she was only a substitute.
Scully hated to think
it but she knew that he’d chosen Diana over her and their child. She sat
back in the car seat and inhaled deeply and let out her breath slowly. Mulder
had made his decision and it was time for her to face the reality of it. She
placed her hand on her abdomen and rubbed. She smiled at the response her action
elicited from the tight quarter’s occupant. Speaking softly she said, “I
suppose we need to get busy, we have a lot to do.”
Scully entered her
apartment and headed straight to her bedroom, pulled her suitcase out and started to pack as quickly as her swollen body would
allow. She looked at the open case now filled with her clothes and shook her
head. No, leaving was the coward’s way.
She would not leave but that didn’t mean she would see Mulder anymore.
No one knew for a
fact that he was the father of this child and nothing less than a DNA test could prove it.
With Diana Fowley back in the picture she doubted Mulder would bother. No,
he would be thrilled not to have the baggage. It would make his and Diana’s
life easier not to have a messy baby in the way. Besides, Diana Fowley didn’t
impress her as being particularly maternal.
Scully knew to hedge
her bet with an escape plan if, for some reason, Mulder did pursue paternity, she and her child would disappear. She picked up the phone; she had work to do and a short time to do it in.
Frohike, Byers and
Langly busied themselves with her requests. While Byers and Langly were at her
computer setting up a false identity Frohike was changing her locks. The men
had hurried themselves to her side, without question, when she called.
She told them what
she’d seen the trio was incensed and Byers, of all people, had to be restrained from going after Mulder. It was Frohike who took charge, telling the others not to waste time and energy on revenge. They needed to focus on the issues at hand. He left to buy
a new lock and to speak with the apartment manager. He told the others to start
establishing Scully’s new identity so it would be in place immediately if she needed it.
He then startled them all by telling them to create IDs for the three of them too.
“I’m not letting you out there by yourself.” He turned
to the others for conformation and they both nodded. Scully was ordered to go
Scully watched the
ceiling, trying to calm her nerves. Even without Mulder she had to consider herself
blessed. She had her family and they had been very supportive, even Bill. She also found out what terrific friends she had.
Besides the three misfits who adopted her as their own, there was Skinner, Doggett and Monica.
Those two gruff men
had become very protective of her and the baby. They, along with the Gunmen,
had become surrogate uncles to her unborn child. She wasn’t supposed to
know but Skinner had set up a trust fund for the baby. While Doggett kept buying
little stuffed toys until she had to gently put a stop to it out of pure desperation for fear that with all the toys there
wouldn’t be room for her and the child.
Monica had become
her surrogate sister and they spent long hours talking and planning. It was Monica
who took her shopping for her first maternity outfit. Scully had been mortified
and the memory still made her blush. ‘Come on, Dana. The days of oversized smocks and muumuus are gone. Today’s
young professional pregnant woman is ‘sassy and sexy’! Time to show
a little skin, maybe a cropped tee shirt to show off that beautiful big belly.’ Gosh,
she reminded her of Missy.
If she had to leave
she would find a way to stay in touch with everyone she left behind. Everyone
The phone interrupted
her musings. Byers and Langly were at her bedroom door before she had a chance
to answer it. She decided to use the speakerphone. “Scully.”
it’s me. Sorry it’s such short notice but I have to cancel tonight,
something’s come up.”
she couldn’t disguise the disgust in her voice. “That’s fine, Mulder, in fact it’s expected.”
miss the tone and harsh words. “What’s that supposed to mean?”
it’s just you’ve cancelled every time this week.” She sighed
attempting to regain her composure before continuing. “Listen, I’m
sorry. I guess I’m just a little tired.
I’ve got to go.”
can put off what I was going....” She didn’t let him finish.
I’m not up for anything tonight. You just go ahead and do whoever you planned.”
She didn’t even notice the slip but Mulder caught it. “Now I really
have to go.” Dana Scully said the one thing they had never done in their
history, “goodbye, Mulder.” Tears were teasing her eyes and the duo
retreated to give her some privacy.
Mulder looked at
the phone; he’d heard the snide comment that sounded like ‘whoever’ but let it go. He decided he better go and see her, he had been ignoring her all week.
He turned towards Diana and she asked, “Fox? What is it?”
“Diana, I have
to go, I’m sorry but I, well, I just need to go. I’ll call you tomorrow.”
Diana grabbed his
arm and stopped his escape. “I may not be here tomorrow,” she said. Mulder sat back down. He’d call
Scully in the morning; it was time for him to come clean. They continued their
conversation, the same one they’d had all week since Diana had shown up at his door last Saturday. She’d told him how she had to fake her death just to survive; she spent the last year gathering evidence
about the consortium and the invasion. Members, dates and places; all the time
he sat there listening something gnawed at him, something about Scully.
It wasn’t until
two hours later when he went to square up his tab that it hit him, Scully said ‘goodbye’. Jim looked at him and before Jenna could stop him he said, “Dana sure is getting big, but considering
how small she is I guess it’s to be expected.”
think much of the comment but asked, “when’d you see Scully?”
she came in. She didn’t stay long, I guess she left when she saw you were,”
the man nodded toward Diana, “busy.” Mulder looked to Jenna for confirmation
and she nodded solemnly.
Scully had been there?
She’d seen him with Diana. His panic rose to un-before known levels. His mind replayed their conversation. Her
quiet and snide ‘whoever’ now made sense. Also, Scully’s solemn
‘goodbye, Mulder,’ had the sound of finality. Was she really saying
goodbye? Mulder ran out leaving a very angry Diana Fowley to find her own ride. He only hoped he wasn’t too late.
The elevator doors
opened and Mulder was met with the sight of Frohike changing the locks on Scully’s door.
He ran down the hall, pushed the little man out of the way and entered her apartment.
The moment he crossed the threshold he knew he was not welcome there.
Scully was seated
on the couch, flanked by Byers and Langly. They were showing her a folder that
Byers quickly closed as soon as he saw Mulder.
isn’t what you think!” Mulder began but his audience’s hostility remained.
even turn to look, “leave, Mulder, you are not needed here; I think you prefer your earlier companion than any you will
find here.” Her voice was cold but didn’t hide the emotion of her
A look passed between
the sitting trio. Byers stood and took her hand to help her stand. Mulder was watching so intently that he failed to see Langly move to his side and Frohike reposition himself
between Mulder and the hall leading to her bedroom. Mulder reached out to her
as Byers led her toward her room but Langly grabbed his arm. Mulder was able
to shake off Langly easily enough only to find Frohike in his way. No one would
believe it to see the little man but Frohike was a force to reckon with.
you think you’ve done enough damage? Why don’t you just go back to
that back stabbing bitch you find so damned fascinating and leave Dana alone? She
can’t afford any more stress.” Frohike stood his ground. “Just get the hell out of here. She doesn’t need
you and your lies anymore.”
Mulder stared at
her bedroom door. Byers closed the door as he exited. “I need to see her, to explain.”
Frohike shook his
head and Byers indicated they should sit. “She went to the doctor today. She said you were supposed to go with her but you didn’t show. She’s been forced to start her leave. Her blood pressure
and sugar levels are a problem. The doctor is worried that she’s been under
too much stress. Your actions have been a big contributor and finding you today
with that woman didn’t help.” Byers stopped and looked at Mulder,
to see if what he was saying was reaching the man.
doing what she has to for her baby; for your baby. Though nothing exists that
names you as the father, so you have no fears on that score,” Frohike added bitterly.
“Why don’t you just get out of here and go back to Diana and you two can screw each other silly until she
gets you killed? Just leave Dana and her baby alone so she can build a life.”
A knock on the door
forestalled any reply from Mulder. It was Monica Reyes. “Dana called and asked me to come over.” She said
as she breezed down the hall to the bedroom with Frohike on her heels. Doggett
and Skinner followed her in and stopped in their tracks when they saw Mulder. Mulder
had seen Walter Skinner angry before but nothing prepared him for the look of pure unvarnished contempt he saw in the man’s
eyes. He turned to look at Doggett and saw confusion in the man’s eyes.
“So, the reports
of Diana Fowley’s demise were premature,” Skinner said icily.
moved swiftly to anger. “Scully told you...”
there hotshot. Frohike called us; Dana doesn’t even know we’re here. And if I were you I wouldn’t be looking to blame anything on that woman in there. I’d be looking at the asshole in the mirror and asking why the hell am I such
always acted in your best interest even when it put you two at odds. How have
you repaid her?” Mulder’s head hung as Skinner’s well placed
arrows hit their mark. “You’ve lied to her, accused her and now you’ve
“I never, it
wasn’t like that! Diana had information.” Mulder fell onto the couch, “I just wanted the information.”
He looked up. “She risked her life to get me this information. That has to count for something.”
Langly walked over
to Mulder. “Risked her life? How
was she risking her life?”
her death and went underground. She only surfaced now so that she could give
me the information. She has names of consortium members and locations.” Mulder saw the looks shared between Langly and Byers.
Byers, always the
calmest of the three, walked over to Mulder and placed a hand on his arm. “She
played you, Mulder. Langly’s been doing some searches.”
Langly picked up
the folder from the table. “Diana Fowley’s body was supposed to have
been found at her apartment. The body wasn’t identified because of a mix
up with the morgue. It was sent, by mistake, to Dunsworth Funeral Home in Fernwood
where they cremated it per the pre paid arrangements they had on file for a Marcella Denton.
Ms. Denton was in Royal Oak Michigan at the time celebrating
the one hundredth birthday of her father, Lloyd Peterson.
“I took a flyer
and looked into some accounts that, during a previous investigation, we were able to link to several of Diana Fowley’s
aliases and found that there has been continuous activity on them since her death.”
need money to . . .” Mulder interrupted.
both deposits and withdrawals,” Byers said. “The deposits totaling
two million since her ‘death’ were traced back to Roush Pharmaceuticals.”
Mulder laid his head
on the back of the couch. “I’ve really been a fool.” He turned to look down the hallway, the yearning clearly written on his features.
A commotion at the
entrance grabbed all their attention and Frohike ran out of the bedroom just as Doggett opened the door. There were two paramedics and Frohike yelled, “she’s in here.
She’s nearly nine months pregnant, lots of stress. She was fine
then she grabbed her stomach . . .” His voice broke off.
Mulder was up and
racing toward the bedroom only to be pulled back by Skinner. “Don’t
you think you’ve caused enough damage?”
A motley group waited
impatiently outside the examining room when the nurse appeared. “Family
of Dana Scully.”
Mulder rushed over.
“Can I see her?”
are you and what is your relationship to her?”
the baby’s father.” His voice was desperate.
“Ah, no, you
are not. Not according to the paperwork.”
She handed him the chart, where it asked for the father’s name was
Mulder waited till
after shift changed and the nurses and orderlies on duty were busy to sneak into Scully’s room; she was asleep. He hesitated just inside the doorway and surveyed the machines hooked up to her. How many times had they held vigil over each other during hospital stays? How many doctors and nurses did they confer with on behalf of the other?
Too many, too damned many.
This time it wasn’t
just Scully but their baby too. Mulder silently approached the bed and placed
his hand gently on her stomach. Before that moment Scully’s pregnancy had
been some sort of abstract concept, now, touching her, it became real. Scully,
his Scully, was carrying a child, his child, their child. He, Fox Mulder, was
going to be a Dad.
be here, Mulder.” Scully’s voice was tired and tinged with pain.
“I have to
be, Scully. I couldn’t let you be alone.” Mulder’s hand had not left her.
“Why? Just because this happened shouldn’t change anything. It has nothing to do with you. I,” she stopped as a
pain raked though her mid section.
God, Scully. I’m sorry, so damned sorry.
I never meant to hurt you.” Mulder pleaded with her.
She took a cleansing
breath and patted his hand. Tears threatened to fall. “It isn’t your fault, Mulder; it’s mine. I
deluded myself in thinking that once she was gone I would be enough. I was foolish.
Now she’s back and I won’t burden you with...” Her resolve broke and she couldn’t continue.
aren’t being fair,” his words were interrupted by her hand throwing his off.
not being fair, me? Get out, Mulder. Go
back to Diana. I always knew I was the consolation but I thought I mattered at
least a little.”
Suddenly the monitors
started chiming and two nurses rushed in. “Who the hell are you?” One yelled at Mulder. “Oh, just
Mulder found himself
propelled out of the room and bumping the wall opposite the door as he watched several other people run in to Scully. His mind was a whirl. Did Scully really
think what she’d said? He knew she did, Scully never lied unless it was
to protect him. Scully honestly thought he’d only turned to her because
Diana was no longer available.
Mulder waited until
the doctor told him that Scully and the baby would be okay then he found himself back at Casey’s. This time he was alone and he sat at the bar. Jenna had just
served his third double scotch and told him it was his last when she turned on him.
“You know, Spooky, you really are a shit. How could you do that
to Dana? That’s your baby she’s carrying and you show up every day
with that,” Jenna stopped, not knowing how to finish the sentence.
think Scully would find out.”
“Oh, and THAT
makes it all right? Dana’s pregnant and you’re out getting your jollies. That is just too damned terrific. And
don’t think I don’t know who that woman is. She’s the one who
almost made you lose Dana the last time you acted like a complete fucking fool. That
was that Fowley bitch you took up with a couple years ago. Wasn’t it?” Mulder’s head jumped up and looked at Jenna.
“Oh, don’t be so dumb, Dana’s been known to come here too you know.
She came in a lot during that time. Well, not frequently, but more than
she normally would. We got to be more than the patron – bartender friendly
stranger thing I have with most of the customers.
“It was her
third or fourth visit in two weeks and the first time she ordered something stronger than seltzer with lime. I took my break and went over and sat down without an invitation.
Three visits later and she started talking. Nothing specific but I have
the benefit of seventeen years behind a bar. I’ve learned to fill in the
blanks. You were whoring around on her and she was jealous as sin but didn’t
think she had the right.”
I mean, Diana and I didn’t, I mean. . .” Mulder tried to defend himself.
matter, she thought you were and she got that idea from somewhere. Either it
was the way you acted or that woman said or did something; maybe both. There
was no one more surprised to see you and Dana together than me when you two walked in here about seven months later.”
For the first time
the ramifications of his actions hit him squarely in the face. And he wasn’t
only thinking of his latest activity regarding Diana; but before. How many times
did he make Scully feel betrayed and left out? Why hadn’t he ever just
told her about his past? Why didn’t he clarify that Diana was all in the
past and she, Scully, had been the only woman in his life for years?
have seen her face when she came in here earlier and saw you all cozy with that woman.
I think a bit of Dana died right in front of me.” Jenna walked away
to take care of a group of wannabees at a table by the back.
Mulder made his way
to Scully’s room and silently slipped in. Scully was sleeping peacefully
in the light of the monitors. He moved a chair close to the head of her bed and
Mulder watched her
sleep for awhile then moved even closer. One hand found its way to her abdomen
again and the other caressed her downy cheek.
He sighed and a tear
escaped his eye. “Scully, I’ve been a fool, but you should be used
to that. I need to tell you things that have gone unexplained for too long. Things you have a right to know and that I should have told you so long ago.
“The most important,
maybe the only important one, is that I love you, Scully. You have never been
a consolation. I didn’t always love you but I did always like you. You had every right to toss it in and leave me and my search so many times; but you
never did. Whenever they offered you an out you staunchly refused. I think I first started falling in love with you that day you stood up to Tom Colton. He’d just told you that he was going to find a way to get you reassigned. You just looked at him and thanked him for the opportunity but you already had an assignment. You didn’t leave any room for interpretation; you were a basement girl and you were staying one.”
Mulder leaned over
and kissed her cheek. “You crept into my soul so quietly I didn’t
even notice and it took me years to realize you were no longer just my partner or my best friend.
The changes were
so subtle and happened without me knowing. Somehow you’d turned into the
woman I loved, love, because I do love you. I realized that I’d never known
love before because I never felt this way before.”
rested on her mattress facing hers. “Tomorrow, I’m going to tell
you all of this again. Only this time you will be awake and I will find a way
to make you believe. I will make you believe if it takes the rest of our lives.” Mulder’s eyes closed.
joined his on her stomach. “I want to believe, Mulder,” she said
opened and he smiled.